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2010-04-07T07:23:00.000-07:00

Well, today was fine ba? I don't know..heh.

I told my mum the truth, everything. Though she's disappointed in me, but I've got no choice. I want to change and be a better person. To study hard and do my mummy proud. It's gonna be difficult, but I'm willing to try my best.

Sigh, did I do something wrong again? Cause you didn't reply my message. Sigh..

2010-04-06T05:05:00.000-07:00

OMG! I lost my phone! The other one, the one my mum don't know..how? ): I scared............ Me on the verge of crying liao. :x

Today school was fine, fun-neh and fun though. (: And chemistry and chinese test were quite difficult. Sigh..hope i can pass. :(

Went orchard ion and taka today. Hah, didn't study at all. Just walked around..aimlessly. Hah.

Me going to find my phone~ Not going to study until i find my phone. ):

Bye~

I'm contented with what i have now. Really. (:

SharmaineTok

2010-04-05T04:39:00.000-07:00

Hahahahaaaa, I'm happy! And sad. :(

Today lesson's were okay lah, here and there a little bored. So i talk here and there lor. Stupid Jerry keep saying i'm short. Idiot-tic. And the stupid SeowBin keep throwing the paper at me! Irritating~ But was quite fun though, with people around. Told some stuff to Crystal and jerry though. Hope they won't say out. *Cross fingers~* Hahhahaa. (:

Went to study with Huijing today. Hahaaa. Then talk about many things too. :) Then home sweet home. Gonna study liao. Bye~

I almost wish i know it earlier.
So that things will change for
the better? But i'm quite contented
with what i have now. I'm happy enough.
Just hope you will be happy always. And
don't stress yourself out. See you stress,
makes people stress too. Cheer up and jia you.
Know you can score well de. :)

SharmaineTok

2010-04-04T03:20:00.000-07:00

Today is so tring! Lunch with whole family. The restaurant's food quality has decreased, but had a great time with loved ones. (: Then headed down towards the west to the cemetry to "sao mu". Was feeling nauseous in the car, cause the journey too long le. Whenever there's a journey in the bus or car for more than 20 minutes, i will feel that way. Sian 1/2. :x

Tomorrow school again. Sian! :x

I sometimes hope you have
a blog or something. So
that i can know your feelings.
Even when you feel tired or sad,
at least i know. I may not have much
feelings for you, because i know you
don't like me, but it's has become a
habit to know your happenings.
Unfortunately, you deleted your blog.
I don't know the real reasons, but i'm
you have your 苦衷。 Miss talking to you..
and i know you always never fail to make me
laugh. Really appreciate the jokes. :)

SharmaineTok

2010-04-02T23:56:00.000-07:00

HAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAAA! I'm tired~

Just finished gb. I think the sec thress did a great job! But i cried, though i told myself not to before gb starts..it was because i think that gb really stores many memories in my heart. Be it happy or unhappy, they are still memories. I wanted to say this for my speech: "GB really taught me a lot of things in the four years in this school, and the officers and NCOs really helped me a lot. Really appreciate them. And i once thought of quitting, but the thought has vanished. Because gb really is enriching. The annual camp every year are the ones that i think really stop me from quitting. And the lessons and experiences i get from gb, i would never get it in other CCAs." But i end up didn't say much, because i cried. I think i'm getting retard!

Gonna study~ Feeling tired though..now saturdays are free, so i'm going to study more. Haha. And i've realised i changed a lot. Since young to now. Friends are changing too. (don't wanna mention names) And he is changing too, he's getting more hardworking and more emotional? And more mature, really. Can see from his fb..

BYE! Gonna study now~

Love gb, you and clique! :)

SharmaineTok

2010-04-01T05:29:00.000-07:00

HAhahahahhahahahahahaha! I'm high now. Heh. (:

Today was okay..pe and the usual stuff. Didn't quite pay attention to poa as i was discussing about rod on saturday and the easter service Cheryl ask me to go. Was thinking how should i explain to my mum. :x

After school went bugis to buy rod presents. Wendy couldn't go because her mum didn't allow her to go. So end up only me and Tris..bought le then went mos burger and slack..then home. Ask mum about the easter and she actually quarrelled with me over this! Idiot-tic. Argh, pekchek. Feel so bad towards Cheryl. Sorry!

I realised you are
changing..some how,
you are not the same anymore.
Though we still talk to each
other everyday, but you don't
treat me the same as before. Is
it because of the quarrels we had?
Or is it because you don't trust me
anymore? I just want to be normal
friends with you. Friends who help
each other, friends who share their
problems and secrets with..like how
we did last year. Is it so difficult
to be the same now? I doubt you will
read my blog, but i'm really talking
about you. I'm trying very hard not to
be bothered about your stuff, but it's
has become my habit, wanting to know..
Sigh..hopefully something will change for
the better.

SharmaineTok

2010-03-31T05:03:00.000-07:00

Today was okay..just a little tired. Slept in class again! Someone must help me from sleeping in class! ):

Sure to fail my maths test! ): Studied with Huijing today! And had a heart-to-heart talk. Then went home.

Mummy gonna tuition me English and poa! Love her to the max! :)

Miss you, but i know you will never come back anymore. You are with a girlfriend, and you are living your life happily without me..I feel that i'm such a lousy girlfriend to you. ):

I knew something today! Something i never know last year, which i should. ): Sighh..too late to regret..Maybe i'm really stupid and slow like what everyone think of me.. ):

Off to study! Me is a good girl! :)

SharmaineTok

2010-03-30T04:36:00.000-07:00

Lessons were okay today..but feeling sleepy still. Talked to my beloved last night via msn..Miss him loads! He seems slimmer and tanner! And he's still the same. Except that he has become more and more independent! I'm super happy for him! But he's not going to come back after he graduate..he's planning to stay in Australia. Means he's not going to come back for me! ): I hope he doesn't still read my blog..cause i really hope that he will come back! Cause he promised me he will.. And i told him last night that i'm happy he's not coming back. Because i don't want him to worry about me. I'm already sixteen, going to an young adult soon. I can't expect to have someone taking care of me 24/7. I need to be taking of myself, on my own..

Now it's the time to really work hard and study. I want mug hard! People! Please give me motivation! I really need motivation kay! :)

Love, please take care of yourself there. I know you might not even read my blog anymore, because of your girlfriend and you are busy..But i really hope, some how you are able to read this. I know i sort of force you to be with that girl, but i can see that you are starting to have feelings for her already..you can deny for as much as you want. But i can see it myself. Clearly. But i just need to know that we broke up not because either of us feels that the feelings has faded, but is because i don't like long-distance relationship. You still understand me the best. But, i can feel that there is something between us that is lacking..maybe we didn't talk for a long time. That might explain that feeling. You are still as sweet and silly as before. Never fail to make me smile. And you still will 对我撒娇, make me laugh even more! Those times we had, suddenly came to my mind once again..and i was unable to sleep last night. I was thining about our past, when you wer the one always there for me, happy times or sad times. And whenever i have problems, you were the one who give me advices. When i talked about the guys in my school, you ill give me that jealous look on your face. And when i want something for fun, even if i was joking, you will never fail to get it for me. And i treated you badly. I know you keep saying that i treat you very well, but i still think that i'm not a good girlfriend. Always showing you my angry face, even it's not your fault at times, always biting you, and always helping me to finish my food! You never complain about anything, but i know sometimes i'm a little too much. With you around, i'm like a spoilt girl. I miss your shoulders when i'm tired. When i'm sitting bus or mrt, i miss you sitting beside me, lending your shoulders for me to sleep when i'm tired. You are the best and sweetest boyfriend i can ever get. Love you to the max! :D

SharmaineTok

2010-03-29T02:11:00.000-07:00

Me tired! But came home early to study. Heh.

Today lessons were okay..Studied a bit here and there. And doze off during chinese period. Cause really too tired. Then crapped around here and there..Maths and English kept talking and joking around. Hah.

Off to study! (: And prepare for ROD speech and presents. :x

SharmaineTok

2010-03-28T05:59:00.000-07:00

ME TIRED! Going to have school for thirteen straight days! From last week de moday until this week de saturday! This week busy again! Friday BBQ with loved ones! At my godma house. :D And saturday is R.O.D..somehow i think i will miss waking up early and having breakfast with Triscilla and Wendy before heading to school and saturdays. Sigh..

Me wanna study soon! Maybe mummy is going to let me have tuition. If she allows, i'm going to find one asap. Anyone got suggestions? As in, good teachers? For chemistry especially! ):

Me going to offline soon le. Going to sleep early, cause tomorrow got school. I don't want to sleep in class. :x But still have to talk to dear mumy, haven't settle yet. ):

Nights people! (: Sweet dreams, and rest well. :D

SharmaineTok

2010-03-25T05:18:00.000-07:00

Today was a fine day? Not too sure..a bit down. Ate breakfast with Ruyan and Huijing. Huijing forgotten that it was a late thursday, and saw her at the bus stop. Then i ask her to join us. Hehe. (:

Poa test was difficult. Didn't study at all. Heh. :x Lost interest in poa le. But gonna find Mr Ha for extra lessons next week onwards. Me good girl right? (: Heh heh.

Me gonna dieeeee...no iTouch..for one week. ): Banana bitch sucks to the max. ):

Me want to study le, bye~~

Jiayou, must mug hard people! (: Must muggggggggg harddddddd!!!!!! Me want to seeeee everybody happppppyyyyyy! :D

BYE! Me very high now! :D Cause i super like my net book! :D

(I realise my uncle is super sweet, P&C. :D )

SharmaineTok

2010-03-24T06:10:00.000-07:00

Hahahhahahahahahahahahahahahaaa!!!!!!! Me officially have air con and net book in my room! Yay! Now no need to go out and use com anymore! Hah! :DD

Today was okay. But the stupid banana bitch spoil my mood. She teacher big uh? Bad day then can shout at us is it? She raise her voice at me is correct, never picked up my calls is reasonable, say is I being extra trying to help friends. Then I just call her six times and she scolded me, and accused me of harrasing her? Wth. She's totally biased lah, so what she return the phone today when she's supposed to confiscate it the whole week? So now it's totally our fault is it? Wth, can't stand her lah. Bitch. Spoil my mood, even it's not my phone that is being confiscated. Help friends what, school always emphasize must have teamwork and help each other in need. Then now we help then kena scolding. What's wrong with her? Her teaching also sucks lah, everytime skip here skip there, trying to be lazy. Then we fail, she say is we never study. Screw her lah.

Me happy still! :D Because of net book! Hah!

SharmaineTok

2010-03-23T04:44:00.000-07:00

Hahahahaaaa. I'm tired. And I'm so dead!!!!! Friday is meet-the-parents session!!!! Shit! I told my mum so much rubbish! Those teachers better not give me away... :x

Today rained, and it was quite cold in school. Didn't bring my sweater. Wanted to bring actually, but ended up say nevermind lah..don't look like will rain. End up? Rained. -.- Lunch with Huijing and Huiying today, and something super funny happened. Hahahahahahahahahahahaha! Then study with Huijing at my house downstairs. Heh.

Me tomorow got air con and net book! Super super happy!!!!! :D

我正试着放弃你。我知道并不容易，但我一定要习惯没有你的存在。我已经好几晚没睡了，因为正在想我到底哪里惹你生气。现在我只希望我们是朋友，就那么的简单。简单的好朋友，真的有那么难吗？或许是我吧，永远不会得 true love。又或许是老天爷在整我们吧。应该是我笨吧，你试着给我提示，但我没发现..结果就这样失去了。算了，我现在只希望和你做回好朋友，就那么简单。

SharmaineTok

2010-03-22T04:51:00.000-07:00

So far I have been a good girl. Faithfully feeding my blog. (:

Today was the first day of school. After the one week break. Well, I could wake up and not be late at least. Me have been a good girl in class too. Paying attention in class and studying. (: Studied with Huijing today and talk about school life. Hah! Realized she has a lot of things that I don't know. And they are those that will make me shock! But we did study kay. We are good girls. Planning to meet up with this girl almost everyday after school to study. (: And have a heart-to-heart talk at the same time.

Maybe it was a misunderstanding. I misunderstood you. Now I know the reason why you called me that. It is all a misunderstanding. I swear. But guess it's too late? We two don't even talk nowadays. Sigh.. but it's my fault. I said I don't like them and yet..forget it. What's done is done. Now I can only look at the future and not the past anymore. I'll try though..

Me is tired! And me gonna study maths and geography now! Me want to mug hard and not disappoint my dearest mummy!

SharmaineTok

2010-03-21T00:57:00.000-07:00

Me so happy!!! Went to have lunch with family. (: And had bonding time. Love holidays to the max! :D

But I'm angry about something. Shall post it in private blog. Heh heh.

School's starting. Me want work hard and study. I want pass my N level!! And I want to muggggg hard!!!!!!

My tagboard is rotting. ):

If one really made you angry, then you should talk it out. Not everyone is as smart as you to guess what's one angry about. If one knows what mistake one make, one will admit and apologise. One tried to talk things out but you ignored me. When you are angry, you always ignore one. How to one know what and who you are angry about? One is not that smart to the extent of reading peoples' mind. One tried to make the friendship better between us, but failed to. One is still trying and want to give my best. One know That one is the worst friend anyone could have, cause one have many bad things..but one is trying to change already. If you are a friend, please tell one one's mistake so that one can change. I'm really trying to make things better, but apparantly it's not working. I'm very sorry.

SharmaineTok

2010-03-17T06:37:00.000-07:00

Long time no post le. Simply lazy to. Haha.
Recently busy with studies. I'm serious. I have been busy studying Kay. I'm a good girl. (:

Bastard:
I've just realize how "wonderful" you are. Treat me so well, then throw me all the way to hell. Seriously, I don't think I deserve that treatment from you. I treated you so well, and you did this to me. Asshole. I didn't know you can act so well. So well until I didn't realise what a friend you are to me. No, not a friend even. Still say I'm a backstabber? Then what are you? Two-faced bastard? I once thought you were the one that could made me happy, though you made me cry at times. But now, you are nothing to me. Nothing. I gave so much to this love but j was treated the way I shouldn't be treated. Bastard, I'm so glad I saw your true colours now. Thanks for the memories you had given to me. Though you hurt me, those memories wenhad together were the ones I treasures the most. The moments thatbi never wanted it to end. I'm sorry if I had made you angry or upset. But you did it to me too. And I swear it's much more than what I did to you. Truthfully speaking, you taught me a lot of things. It's countless. And I really appreciate it. But my love for you has changed to hatred already. You forced me to. You said those words that hurt me so much that I couldn't bear to scold you. I hate you to the max but I miss talking to you. 2009, was the best year I ever had. Friends, you, and family. You were the most important factor that 2009 was the best year. Now, those memories are going to be hidden. Hidden somewhere deep in my heart. No one will ever replace you. Ever.

2010-02-25T04:22:00.000-08:00

Recently didn't have the time to post. Though I was surfing Internet. (:

Today went breakfast with Ruyan. Yummy. (: Then had pe. Today wasn't feeling as tired as the past few days. Maybe because I slept a little earlier than usual last night. Went to watch hot summer with Cheryl, HuiJing, Jasmine, LiYin, Brandon, Alvin, HuiChao and Joshua. The cinema was damn cold, and HuiChao lent me his jacket. After the show, went to sit taxi with HuiJing and LiYin while the rest went to eat dinner. Went grandma house and eat. Then home sweet home. (:

Felt very tired these few days. Because I kept sleeping at one plus two. Haha. (:

SharmaineTok

2010-02-12T02:40:00.000-08:00

These few days i have been tired. Finally made the decision and decided to not regret it. Hope i will get what i want to hear.

Valentine's day is round the corner and people have been giving me presents. TOUCHED. (: And too, i give people presents. YAY. :D

Went TM with Ruyan, Tris and HuiSi today. Watched Valentine's day and rushed home. Having great headache now... ): The show is damn nice!!!!!!!!!!!

CAPRICORN - The Passionate Lover
Love to bust. Nice. Sassy. Intelligent. Sexy. Grouchy at times and annoying to some. Lazy and love to take it easy. But when they find a job or something they like to do they put their all into it. Proud, understanding and sweet.
Irresistible. Loves being in long relationships. Great talker. Always gets what he or she wants. Cool. Loves to win against other signs especially Gemini's in sports. Likes to cook but would rather go out to eat at good restaurants.
Extremely fun. Loves to joke. Smart.

SharmaineTok

2010-02-03T05:57:00.000-08:00

Finally decided to update my blog. Recently lazy to update though I have been using Internet. Not com, but iTouch. :D But I super tired lah. ):

Today school was okay, not boring, neither it was fun. Mep was fine. Kb and Nicole kept making me laugh like siao. Then headed back to school with kb to find Gladys for dinner. Didn't eat but accompany them. Then headed home. Freaking tired sia. Tomorrow still got pe and stay late. Friday still got to go back primary school for gb. But it's fun!!! :DD

I wanna study hard.

Though I know your feelings a little too late, but i didn't regret knowing later. Maybe we weren't meant to be together at all. Bevause if you still have feelings for me, you would have told me earlier. And not treating me this way.

SharmaineTok

2010-01-25T05:28:00.000-08:00

Wow, got a birthday present from Amanda. And i'm happy. (: Had fun today. (:

Lessons were fine. But i start to get tired and tired more easily. Sian, i think i will be dead before the week end. So much activities. ): I dun like it. ):

Bitch No. 1:
Can you stop flirting around????? You think you have what people dun have, and that's why you can flaunt around in front of the guys??? Guys only get close to you because of your "strength". Bitch, stop flirting around. Important exams are coming and you should study. Dun think by calling guys' nicknames means they like you or they ask you to call. Just shut your big fat mouth and get lost. Study is more important then your flirting.

Bitch No. 2:
Hello??? You think you are perfect and you are always right?? In fact, you do what you think is wrong and you criticize those who did it. Oh please, dun think every guy likes you okay!! And even your "best friend" thinks you suck. Don't you get the facts right???? You've been ostracized by people around you. Bitch, you say one and do two. What you mean by that??? Complaining about others when you yourself is doing the same fucking thing. Oh please. Shut your fat mouth and stop complaining. You just sucked totally and everyone is tolerating your fucking attitude.

I'm satisfied, after scolding the bitches. But i'm still feeling down. ):

I think i changed a lot. But i dunno is for the better/worse. I HOPE is for the better.

SharmaineTok

2010-01-15T05:35:00.000-08:00

Recently very late go home. Studied in school. I realised that i study better in school in the afternoon and study at home in the night. That's a good thing to know!!!! (:

Today was quite okay. My sore-throat and flu haven't recover. ): Tomorrow is the cca fair. And everyone was busy. Having cca, decorating the cca booths and stuff. Only the gb (s) were so free. SIAN..

I wanna study. YAY.

SharmaineTok

2010-01-14T03:48:00.000-08:00

I didn't sleep well last night. Slept at 1 plus. ): But school was okay. (: Haha!!! (:

I've decided to do something different. Hope it will go well.

SharmaineTok

2010-01-13T05:28:00.000-08:00

I finally get to sort out the misunderstandings today!!! My mind has a load lighter. (:

School was okay today, didn't understand chemistry. But HJ, HY and Jerry teach me. So i sort of understand. Physic suck.

After school, went to TKGS with that stupid KaiBoon. He damn irritating. But damn funny!!!!! I swear. Started late and ended early. So i went back to school. To try my luck to see if i can do something. CAUSE I WAS SO BORED!!!!!!!! ): And saw Cheryl, Cindy, KaLin and YaoFeng in the library. Nurul and ZhiSheng in the canteen. Ikram, Wesley, Jerry and Nik Han having NPCC. Haha!!!! (: But they damn fierce. really.

I'm sorry to Cheryl.

I'm sorry to HuiJing.

I'm sorry to Jerry.

('Cause they were my best friends and will always be. I swear my heart off.)

I'm sorry to Ruyan also. (For today things)

Sigh, i'm confused with love. ):

SharmaineTok

2010-01-12T01:51:00.000-08:00

Sick the whole day. Went Paya Lebar with Ruyan. Bought stuff for Tris and Cheryl and myself. I enjoyed today very much, though i'm sick.

Changed place in class. ): Hope it will be fun there. :x

Tomorrow is going to be a long day for me. ):

SharmaineTok

2010-01-11T02:12:00.000-08:00

I'm sick!!!!!!!! ): School was fine today, except i keep having headaches. They keep coming and going. ):

SharmaineTok

2010-01-08T00:16:00.000-08:00

Sian, camp ended. Now it's the time to study. Sigh...

My blister hurts!!!!! ):

SharmaineTok

2010-01-07T01:53:00.000-08:00

Today was quite fun. Though i had blister and stomachache, overall was quite fun. (: Went Ruyan's house to change in the early morning. At 5!!!! I'm so damn grateful to her lah!!!!!! :DD

The meal at the hotel was yummy. I love the dessert!!!!! Cause got strawberry!!!!! Ate an extra strawberry!!!! From somebody who doesn't like to eat!!! (: Haha. (:

After today, i'm gonna mug hard for N level. (: I'm serious.

SharmaineTok

2010-01-06T02:43:00.000-08:00

Shit, i dunno what to wear tomorrow. Damn it. ):

SharmaineTok

2010-01-05T02:26:00.000-08:00

Sian, Something is happening to me. I'm gonna fall sick!!!!!!! ): I dun like it. ):

I've realised i have nothing to post about. ):

SharmaineTok

2010-01-04T03:51:00.000-08:00

I have a intuition. I believe it will come true this year. I swear.

School was okay. Tired.

SharmaineTok

2009-12-31T08:02:00.000-08:00

Well, guess 2010 is here already. Happy New Year, everyone. (:

A new year. A new beginning. A new me.

SharmaineTok

2009-12-29T17:29:00.000-08:00

Yesterday had a great day out with HuiJing and Jasmine. (: Crapped and joked a lot. (: Especially with the "jk" thing. -.- But it was fun. :D Went ikea for lunch then headed to vivo with a taxi. (:

HuiJing had to leave earlier so me and Jasmine went to bugis to walk around. (: Then went home around 5 plus. Went to grandma house for dinner then went back to bugis again with my mum for some shopping with food as my cousins are coming today for babysitting. -.- Supposingly should be going for the cold storage, but ended up with BHG. My uncle bought me a shoe!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (: Though wasn't my favourite, but i quite like it. My uncle also bought 2 jeans and a slipper. Before i came along with them. So if you are clever, i think you should be able to know that they came to bugis today without me knowing!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ):

Then suddenly came a call at 8 plus, to ask me out. I looked at my mum and she actually agreed!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I was damn happy lah!!!!!!!!!!!! Went home at around 9 plus going 10, bathed and headed to some people's house. Slacked and reached home around 5 plus. My mum wasn't angry at all!!!!!!!!!!!! :D Maybe is because the person is ______________________. ): But i'm happy. (:

Loads of love to HuiJing, because she bought me a water bottle from U.S.A i think!!!!! (:

Loads of love to Jamine too, for hanging with us yesterday. (:

Loads of love to everybody. (: Because i love them. (:

And lastly, loads of love to my mummy and uncle, because she let me go out. :DD
(and somebody else is included. (: )

SharmaineTok

2009-12-28T00:01:00.000-08:00

Yesterday had family gathering. Had loads of fun. School is staring soon. ):

Tomorrow going out with HuiJing, Cheryl, Jasmine and KaLin. 30th going out again. 31st it's free and 1st will be my birthday. 2nd will have another family gathering. Full schedule ahead. (:

SharmaineTok

2009-12-23T03:30:00.001-08:00

Went to Bo Wen Secondary School with Ruyan's family..together with Ruyan's family. Thought would be awkward but ended up okay. (: quite fun though. Haha. (:

Tired and bored. ):

2009-12-18T00:19:00.000-08:00

Sigh..i'm so so so tired now!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ): Shacked from baking cookies. I started baking from morning eight till now!!!!!!!!!!!!!! But is last batch le. YAY!!!!! :DDD

Cheryl went overseas. ):

I miss school and my clique. ):

SharmaineTok

2009-12-10T19:23:00.001-08:00

Maybe i should isolate myself for a while.. Ostracize.

2009-11-30T02:14:00.000-08:00

It will be a long post. 'Cause i'm back from my camp!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (:

Day one:
Had to reach school by 7:30. But i was supposed to meet Ruyan earlier. It ended up that Ruyan woke up late. So i had to wait for her. Haha. The camp started a little different. They started with the so-called boring seminar. But it ended up to be fun. At least i get to know my own personality. Haha. (: Devotion was after our lunch and it was "fun". I didn't fall asleep in it. Then bath and dinner. Then they had a game which we had different parts of our body which has to be not perfect. I was chose to be blind. I TOTALLY HAD NO SENSE OF SECURITY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ): But it was soon over. (: But i had mosquito bite all over my leg when i slept on first day. ):

Day two:
We started the morning with quiet time. No comments on it.. Then we had singing time!!!!!!!!!!!!!! To practise for the caroling on day three.. After lunch we had to prepare for the night anniversary dinner. Everyone chip in to help here and there. And i was running like crazy. LOL. Tired by the time everything finish. Haha. (:

Day three:
Quiet time again in the morning... Then we had to go to church as it was sunday.... After lunch, we had our usual singing time before having the telematch. Though this year a lot of people never come, it was still quite noisy... Because of some people. After dinner, we were splitted into two groups to head to different teachers' house..I was in Lycia's group. Then i had a heart-to-heart talk with JOEY NGIAM!!!!! (: Haha. (: Then after the singing, we headed to old airpot road to eat supper. Saw Yuying at the market. (: Then we had a group photo when we reached school. Some un happy things happen then, i dun wanna go into detail... We had the privelege to sleep in the hall with everyone. EXCEPT that i have to finish the preparation for the next day's devotion. JianWei, Gloria, Ruyan, Faith and some others came in the beginning. But after three am in the morning, left me, JianWei, Gloria and Faith and Shanice. We practised and laughed at the same time. A lot of funny things happen then!!!!!!!!!!!! A LOT OKAY!!!!!!!! AND i was high like siao lat that!!!! For no good reason. :DD We then slept at five am in the morning, and had to wake up eight later... ):

Day Four: (LAST DAY)
Didn't had enough sleep, and a lot of things kept popping up to irritate me, so i was kinda fed up and pissed off. (i dun want to say here, cause i dun people to say anything) Then had to clean up those places we had used for the past four days and three nights. Wendy and i didn't do the duty inspection. We had to scrub the floor cause some people dirty it. It was fun, but tiring. Especially when i had not enough sleep. Then it was time to take photos and go home. Went mac with Wendy, WingWing, Trenna, Karen, Claire and Joey. Then headed to mrt with Claire.. Haha. (:

Tired from the camp activities.

I feel like i was being used. Like a maid. For nothing. It's worth shit.

SharmaineTok

2009-11-26T04:50:00.000-08:00

Phew....i'm done packing with my camp stuff. Haha. (:

Tomorrow i will be gone.....till monday..for my gb camp. Hope it will be fun........... )):

Anyone wanna buy my cookies??? It's yummy!!! And it's safe for eating. (:

(will post on monday or so, after my camp. HAhha)

SharmaineTok

2009-11-25T05:49:00.000-08:00

Recently got bored at home. Didn't know what to post, so i didn't update..

This whole week was with my mum. She took leave. Haha. And i baked cookies!! It's yummy okay!! (:

Tired. Haha.

SharmaineTok

2009-11-19T01:41:00.000-08:00

Sigh, raining these few days. ):

I suddenly miss Calvin. For no good reason. )):

I'm tired of studying, someone give me motivation?? ))):

SharmaineTok

2009-11-13T17:21:00.000-08:00

BORED AT HOME. HOME SUCKS. ):

My stupid ah-pa made me angry. STUPID!!!! (Ryan Soh) Super angry. HMPH.

SharmaineTok

2009-11-12T23:10:00.000-08:00

Sian, i should be studying now. But here i am, using the com. (:

I think i have fallen in love. ):

SharmaineTok

2009-11-12T03:16:00.000-08:00

I'm stucked at home. WTF. ):

I hate love. How irony. (:

SharmaineTok

2009-11-10T00:29:00.000-08:00

Thinking about a lot of things lately, while i am studying at home the whole day. BOREDOM. ):

Calvin Koh left Singapore today. HAHA. I didn't send him though. (He is damn angry with me. HAHA!! (: ) Guess a less person to share my "xin shi". :x

Love makes people go crazy. I wonder why. Guess Luck is not on my side. ):

Off to study. (believe me, i'm really mugging okay!! I'm a guai kia. (: )

SharmaineTok

2009-11-09T02:59:00.000-08:00

I'm HIGH now!!!!!!!!!!! :DD For no good reason. Dun ask me why. (:

Had fun talking to my sister, GLADYS!!! HAHA.

I LOVE SPAMMING FACEBOOK!!!

Camp TOTALLY ROCCKSSSS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D

SharmaineTok

2009-11-07T01:28:00.000-08:00

I MISS CAMP!!!!!!!!!!!!! RAWR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ):

(That's what i've been thinking all day long.) Sigh......

I wanna go out with Gladys Ong, Seow Hung, Ryan Soh!!! (if those in the camp who wants to meet up, come also!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HAHAHA!!!)

To Ryan Soh:
I think our taste is so different. HOW CAN YOU SAY THAT THEY ARE NOT ***?????!!!!???!!! RAWR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

SharmaineTok

2009-11-06T02:10:00.000-08:00

Today was the last day of camp!!!! I WILL MISS IT MANS!!!! )):

Met gladys (sec one de) at mrt to go to KOVAN. Had to morning call a few people. (: HAHA. Ate breakfast with the usuals (those who went for breakfast on 5/11.) Joke around and headed to the place where we were supposed to perform. Practiced with my group and had laughters too. Though we had only 5 days to prepare, our group was fine. (: My group roccks!!!! HAHA!! (:

Then it was SHOWTIME. (: A few groups were before us. While listening to them, i started getting more and more nervous. For no good reason. Gladys kept asking me if i was okay, i said yes, but i dunno how to explain to her the weird feeling. :x I HAD TO SING IN THE END. MY SINGING SUCCKS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! )): But it was all over. Yayness. (:

Then it was lunch and blah. It was getting boring by the minute so i started texting people. HAH!! (: But it was so bored that i wanted to pon it. But no choice, i dun want to pang seh Gladys, SHE'S SO CUTE!!! (: HAHA (My sister okay!!! (: )

Took pictures with many people. "Naggy DAD", "Strange person" and "Rain" (is a she okay!!! :D ) . Will upload in facebook. When i feel like it. HAHA!! :DD

I'm gonna rest tonight. From tomorrow onwards will be my mugging time. )):

I WANNA MEET THE CAMP PEOPLE AGAIN!!! THEY ROCCKS!!! (: (except for 1, the guy who sung "i wanna i wanna i wanna touch you, you wanna touch me too....) *VOMITS* UBER DISGUSTING. :x

SharmaineTok

2009-11-05T02:18:00.000-08:00

OKay, tomorrow is my performance and i'm like super nervous. What if i play wrong notes and people hear?? So paiseh. ): My clique is going to support me!!! YAY!!! I LOVE THEM!!!!! <33

Today was quite boring. Sequencing of songs and recording. Practiced with my group and had jokes around too. (: Laughed a lot, though i was emo then. The jokes are damn funny.

The camp rocks!!!! But it's tiring though. ((:

SharmaineTok

2009-11-04T02:08:00.000-08:00

HAHAHAHAHAHHAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D I'm loving the camp more and more each day. (:

Today was fun!!!! SUPER FUN!!!!!!!! :DD Went SP for the camp activities and bully people!!! (: (I was being bullied also okay!! ): ) Then had breaks, lunch and stuff. IT'S SUPER FUN!!!!!! (: I never regretted joining!!! (:

Short post, cause i wanna msg people. BYE!!! (:

SharmaineTok

2009-11-03T02:15:00.000-08:00

Today camp was okay. Though i played the scores the first time. (: Had fun talking to Aisyah and Gladys, plus many others. (:

Lunch food was okay. Yesterday suck like hell. I was like *vomits* ... but today okay okay lah. Then i keep practicing with my group. But i keep rushing when in the chrous though.. )):

I'm gonna practice my song now. I dun want to be paiseh on friday.. ):

I LOVE HOTT GUYS!!!!!! (:

TO HJ:
STOP LAUGHING. IT'S NOT FUNNY AT ALL. ):

SharmaineTok

2009-11-02T02:03:00.000-08:00

Today was the first the of the so-called boring camp. But actually it didn't ended up to be as bad as i expected.

First we had the sort of boring part. By doing a few administrative work. I thought my school only got 3 going including me. It ended up to be 7!!!!! I got a shock, plus it's all lower sec. I'm the only upper sec lah!!!!! Sian ( X 2)

Then they started the ice-breaker. A bit weird at first, cause i have to remember so many people's name. Even those Singapore Poly people. It's super difficut okay!!! (Esp. when i have STM) :x But it started to get more fun when you start sabo-ing people. (though i was also being sabo-ed at times. ): )

Then it was lunch and blah. Didn't eat the food as i think the food totally suck. So i just drank something. I didn't eat breakfast too. Because it was too early to have breakfast.

After lunch, they started the super boring theory part. Then we got into groups. My group have only 4 people. Without drum somemore!!!! ): Hope it will be better tomorrow. :x

I hope it will be more fun. Some hot guys there too!!! HOT!!!!!! :DDD My favourite. HAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAA. :DDDD

I wanna have a break. Of everything. (:

SharmaineTok

2009-10-29T00:59:00.000-07:00

Okay, the whole class is going to be promoted to HOPE 4/1 B. (: Plus a few more from express is coming down.

Today got the bazaar thingy. But i didn't sign up. A bit sian though. Took back result slips but wasn't very happy with it. IT IS SUPER LOUSY CAN!!!! ): I promise myself to study hard right after my piano theory.

Tomorrow even more sian. Cheryl, HuiJing and HuiYing not coming to school. LEFT ME!!!!!!! ))): SO SIAN LAH!!!!! ):

TO CLIQUE:
Sorry, i broke my promise. I couldn't go out with you guys after exams. Mum grounded me, me having theory exams. Really sorry. I try to make up okay??? SORRY. )):

SharmaineTok

2009-10-28T04:05:00.000-07:00

OKay, i'm very scared of my results.. )):

Today was in school the whole day. Normal lessons and blah. And Cheryl gave me my birthday present. I'M SO TOUCHED!!!!!! (: LOVE HER LOADS!!!! HAHAHA!!! (:

Going to get result slip tomorrow. SIAN. WHAT IF I DROPPED???? WORRIED. ):

I just want to be happy that's all. Just happy. And study hard.

SharmaineTok

2009-10-27T00:34:00.000-07:00

Today was the Temasek Poly workshop. Supposed to be super boring. But it ended okay. OKAY ONLY. And i kept disturbing the lecturer, telling him i hate him. HAHA!! (:

Then i slept for a while on our way back to school. Then went bugis with Wendy and Cheryl. HJ and HY went somewhere to do something. I think. Then we go see Dickies bag. Buying the same bag as Cheryl. (SO SUAY!!! JKJK) Then we went walked around. While walking, some people stopped us and asked if we wanna cut our hair. At first me and Cheryl sabo Wendy, then it ended up all of us go and cut. In the shop, we suddenly say dun want, then we told the people there. So paiseh lah.. -.-

Maybe you felt worse than me, i really dun know. But from now on, i think i will just treat you from how you treat me. Maybe that might be fair.

HJ, HY and Cheryl:
Maybe i really got keep a lot of things to myself. But i really dunno how to tell you guys my "xin shi" and i scared you guys might not want to hear. That's why i kept it to myself. Sorry..

SharmaineTok

2009-10-26T03:13:00.000-07:00

I realise i have becoming more and more emo. Dun ask me why. Friends, family, piano, studies and blah. All cramming up in my mind. But at least i have Wendy to talk to though. (HEHE!! (: ) 'Cause she knows everything ma. But i know sometimes she never listen de. As she was busy sms-ing my tortoise ah-pa, which is Wendy's .... . (:

Today was quite boring though. Sexual talk was super boring can!!!!! Almost slept in the multi-purpose room. Then suddenly HuiJing pop up. She shocked me lah!!! Then Cheryl saw her became HIGH. I dunno why. -.-

It was boring until 12 plus. When i was msg-ing someone. Though he is my close friend, but at least his msg cheer me up. He doesn't know my "xin shi", but he is damn funny. (: I was really cheer-ed up. (:

I have my goals pin up on my room. I'm gonna make all these goals happen!!!! :D

SharmaineTok

2009-10-24T23:35:00.000-07:00

Sigh Sigh Sigh Sigh Sigh.....

I got too many things on my mind. Who can I talk to???? ):

Some things are meant to be kept for good. But I think these memories should be thrown away. I want it to never be back again.

My brother say i'm simple-minded/ naive. Am i?????? ROAR......................... ):

I know some secrets... But so far only Wendy knows....LOL.

I'm tired of all these memories.

SharmaineTok

2009-10-22T03:12:00.000-07:00

My 123 post. How interesting. HAHA.

Today was okay lah. Had fun disturbing people though. At first thought HuiJing didn't come to school today. Because of her blog. Then she suddenly pop up!!!! We all got a shock, but was very very happy!! HAH!! :D

After school went to run errand with Wendy. At first, only Wendy, then later on.. TongLee came and find Wendy. Then i keep disturbing them.. HEHE!! (:

To CLIQUE:
Sorry i might not be able to join you guys tomorrow. (Provided my uncle is out) SORRY. ): And these few days i keep pangseh-ing you all. Sorry.

Wendy is my mummy and TongLee is my tortoise ah-pa!!!! (inside joke, for the tortoise part!!)

SharmaineTok

2009-10-20T15:03:00.000-07:00

Sorry, i didn't use com these few days. Didn't know what to post.

Today really suck. I dun want to explain much. Only a few know. Had been smsing almost the whole day with that stupid KengHao. (He is my kor, dun be too jealous. ) He keep irritating me by not banging his head on the wall. IRRITATING.

Poa's workshop was boring in the begining, but fun in the end. Had joined group with xiuting's because of small no. of people in our group. And we earn profits!!!! In the game obviously. -.- But that stupid emcee didn't fail to embarrass me AGAIN. ): There is one sec 1 girl i think, her name is Anna (i'm not very sure). She is in my group and she is damn funny!!!!! (:

I sort of enjoy my day. Only in the afternoon. When the fun starts. (KengHao's irritate-ness and the poa workshop)

Ohya, i forgotten to say something. YiDe, Joey, XiangKang and Eugene; you are very very irritating. Dun think you tall you can do anything hor!!!!!! TSK.

Mug hard people, for next year. (:

SharmaineTok

2009-10-18T20:56:00.000-07:00

Sigh Sigh Sigh Sigh Sigh....

SharmaineTok

2009-10-16T04:55:00.000-07:00

Got back my results today. IT IS LIKE SHIT. )): CRAP!!! ): Too disappointed in myself. I'm gonna study hard now!!!!!!!! HAHA!! (i know you guys will not believe it, but is true!!!!)

Today got the poa thingy. Thought it would be boring, but it ended quite fun. Though i lost my voice during the so-called monopoly game. DAMN PEKCHEK LAH. Cant even sell a single fish. ASSHOLE!!!!! ): Then at the end of the game, the so-called emcee sayed my name out. Say i was persistent and blah. SUPER PAISEH OKAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ))):

I wanna study!!!!!!!!! ):

SharmaineTok

2009-10-14T01:04:00.000-07:00

Okay, last paper of the year and i think i gonna flunk it. What the hell.

Didn't went out with clique today. Feel so bad. And whose fault is it?? My dear mother's fault. She didn't allow me to go out today just because of my fucking music. If i had never study music, i would have gone out today. She totally made me hate music now. WTF.

I really wish my mum is not my biological mother. Since my father.... Hai. I should not be saying all these rubbish.

I just want a break with my friends. Why just you understand???

SharmaineTok

2009-10-13T03:25:00.000-07:00

Okay, Physics paper was quite okay. SHould be able to pass ba. (: All thanks to my brother. HAH. (: But my maths paper 2 sure fail de. )):

Today stayed for poa remedial. At least i know some stuff ba. -.- Then went bugis with HJ and HY. Ate KFC and HJ bought donuts for her parents. (:

Tomorrow is last paper!!! YAY!! :D

Hope my mum can allow me to go out tomorrow. Pray people!! (:

My right eyes has been twitching all day long. Cheryl, HJ and HY say is bad omen. Please dun come true!!! ): PLEASE!!!!!!!! ):

SharmaineTok

2009-10-12T03:27:00.000-07:00

I'm so gonna fail my chemistry paper. WTF. ASSHOLE. ):

Today was boring. HJ didn't stay back, cause she went to collect her medicine. I think. So Cheryl, Wendy, Cindy and Jiayi went to eat lunch before studying. Went mac and it rained before we meet Cheryl at the coffee shop. Super suay. ):

Study at school library with them and crapped while studying. Wendy didn't study at all lor. Talking on the phone with that TongLee. -.- Super lame.

Then i pei Cheryl wait for bus before i go home myself. (:

And my brother is going to teach me Physics. YAY. I want to pass my Physics to pass my science. HAHAHAHAHHAHAAAA. (:

YAYAYAYAYAYYAYAYAYAYYAYAYAAY. I am very high. LALALLALALALAAAA.

SharmaineTok

2009-10-09T01:24:00.000-07:00

Geography paper was so-so. Headed to Henderson waves with HuiJing, Cheryl, Wendy, Jerry, Brandon, HuiChao, HuiYing, TongLee and YaoFeng. Waited super long at Kallang mrt for Jerry, TongLee, Brandon and HuiChao, who all went back to change clothes. Crapped a bit and went to Vivo City to eat lunch. Then we walked super long. Took photos and wote rubbish there. We promise each other to go there 10 years later together and tell each other who we like now. (: HAH!! (:

My green monster is dropped!!! ): But HuiJing say she will help me fix. :D

I have been thinking a lot these few days. Loads. And i decided to give up. GIVE UP. Dun ask me why. My institution tells me so. (Unless you can make me change my mind, with a good reason.)

I dunno what to do seriously, becoming more and more emo. What the hell am i doing, i seriously dunno. I know me being emo spoils a lot of my clique's "xin qing", but i really dunnno how to high. ):

Maybe Calvin will help me solve my problem. -.- (you must be real happy when you see this, stupid Calvin. )

I really want to be happy.

I LOVE MY CLIQUE. <33

SharmaineTok

2009-10-07T03:21:00.000-07:00

Today, HuiJing never come school. ): Was very "down"..And we have no pe. Slacked in the dance room with Ms Cheng and the 3-3 girls. "Studied" a bit and crap-ped a lot. HAH!!

After school, had small remedial of maths with yaoFeng, Wendy, Wesley, Cheryl and Jerry. Though Wesley and Jerry didn't ask question much, ESPECIALLY that stupid Wesley. Waste time there only. TSK. -.- Then left Cheryl, Jerry and me plus an unknown sec 2 or 1 guy studying beside the staffroom. Then went mrt with Cheryl. (:

To Cheryl:
CHILL CHILL CHILL CHILL. (:

To Tabitha:
Sorry, couldn't pei you to mrt. ):

To Ruyan:
Sorry!!! ):

I am tired of holding my anger.

Please let me pass my maths and social studies. Together with science and geography. PLEASE HELP ME SOMEONE?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!!!!??!?!?!?! AND POA. ):

SharmaineTok

2009-10-06T03:10:00.000-07:00

Okay, i needa post this. I lost in the finger-guessing game yesterday. A lot of times. ): SUPER EMBARRASSING. :x

Today school was okay. Though headache didn't subside. ): Has lessons per normal and chapel was FUN!! (: Argue with some people in class though. (They know who they are. (: ) Had maths remedial and went school library to "study". -.- Then walked to mrt with Wendy. (: And i saw PEARLY at the mrt station. Hah! (:

To someone idiot-tic:
Do you know what is basic respect??? Adding my friends without my bloody permission?!?!?!?! And still got the cheek to tell me, "nvm lah, also wun die." What the!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?! Please for goodness sake, jump off the building. Dun tell me because you are my whatever okay!!!!

To someone even more idiot-tic:
I practice my piano has no need for you to comment. No one in this world is perfect. NOT PERFECT. Get the message right, if you think is so easy, why dun you try it yourself??? ASSHOLE.

Today i said something embarrasing. It was going home at the general office. Here's yhe conversation:

Me: Mr Lee, can help me pass the form to Mr Sim??? He never come today right??

Mr Lee: Yeah, okay. Shall put on his table. You sure you studying this??? Very difficult you know?? Got a lot of theory work and stuff. Very stressful one leh.

Me: Huh...Really uh??? ...

Mr Lee: Ya, you better think about it twice..Sharmaine..

Me: Eh??? How you know my name???

Mr Lee: It is written on the paper!! If not you think i got super powers???

Me: OH!!!!!!

*END**

Super embarrasing lah!!!! Somemore got sec 4s there leh!!!! I was like... Why i never think of it uh??? -.-

I am not a nerd, you are a noob. (:

SharmaineTok

2009-10-05T03:17:00.000-07:00

HHHAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!! MY 111 post. (:

Today school was a little boring. A bit down (opposite of high). But went bugis with Cheryl, HY, HJ and Jerry. And we went super high. As in HIGH!!!! Played the finger-game at the dessert house there. Then we slacked at bugis, HY went off early and then came home.

I hate headaches, esp. during exam period. ):

SharmaineTok

2009-10-01T03:16:00.000-07:00

Had our first paper today. ENGLISH!!! (: Quite easy though. Hopefully all the papers would be as easy as today. :x But, i know i made some careless mistake. :x

Went marina square with cheryl, HJ, HY and Jerry. Ate Long John and went home. Now having bad headache. Damn pain. ):

Wish everyone good luck for EOY!!! (:

Jolene is my mother; Wesley is my ah-pa! :P

SharmaineTok

2009-09-30T02:40:00.000-07:00

Okay, today school was fun!!! (: PE PLAYED CAPTAIN'S BALL!!!!! But i fell down. ): From the chair. Damn pain! Now my hand still hurts. :/

Stayed back in school to study in the library. With Cheryl and Jerry. Keep laughing in the library though. And stupid Jerry hit my left eye with the stupid eraser. ASSHOLE. ): Then walked to mrt with CHERYL.. (: AND I'M HOME~!!!! (:

HuiJing fell sick these few days. MUST GET WELL SOON!!!!! :D

EVERYBODY MUST JIAYOU FOR EOY!!! (:

TO Cheryl, HuiJing, HuiYing and Jerry:
GOOD LUCK!!!!! :D MUST Jiayou!! (:

Gonna study soon!!! (:

SharmaineTok

2009-09-29T03:20:00.000-07:00

Okay, i am high now!!!! HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!! :D

Today school started a little moody. The mood wasn't very right. HJ sick, Cheryl sad, HY as usual quiet and jerry a little moody. All of us went super high during maths remedial. Playing what you call " Cannot say huh.." (E.G). It was damn fun, though i keep saying those words. But at least everyone was happy. (: But they got play cheat lor. Ask Wesley to talk to me in chinese. WL.. ): After remedial, went to sing post with Ruyan to buy some stuff before heading home. (:

I PASSED MY PHYSICS TEST!!! HAH!!! :DD

When my friends are happy, i will be happy. (:

Going to study soon.

SharmaineTok

2009-09-28T02:41:00.000-07:00

I failed my maths but i pass my physics. So should i be happy or sad?? Sighs...

Talked to Ruyan on the phone on saturday night. And i realised how good girl i was not to talk on the phone frequently. After Ruyan's call, my cousin's friend named Simon called me. And we chatted untill morning 4:30, until i couldn't take it and i doze off!! Without saying goodbye!! I feel so bad lah. ):

Today lessons were a little boring. Guess i became a little emo during lessons today. But with HJ jokes, Cheryl's laughter and Jerry's lame-ness; plus the class talk-a-tive-ness. I was feeling a little better. (: Had chemistry remedial before heading home. I had a little headache so i didn't stay with HJ and Cheryl. And i was super lucky, because my mum was at home today!!! Lucky i didn't stay back, if not i'm in deep shit!! (:

I realised i am becoming more and more emo in class. SOMEONE HELP ME!!!!!!! ): I wasn't this way when i was in sec 1 and 2. Seriously dunno what i am thinking. ):

I wanna pull up my socks and study. Jiayou everyone for E-O-Y!! (:

SharmaineTok

2009-09-25T02:38:00.000-07:00

Okay, school was okay. MR TEO DIDN'T COME TO SCHOOL TODAY!! (: But he gave us homework to do in class. ):

Went sakae with HJ, Cheryl, Jerry and Pearly. HY didn't come along because her guardian didn't allow her to go. >< But once again, i ps them. ): I still cant go out normally like what they do. I really want to go out once together without ps-ing them.

I think there are some misunderstandings, but maybe a few days of chilling might be good. Both of you are my best friends, i dun want both of you to quarrel. Chilling for a few days might be the best solution right now.

I dun want anything to happen to any of my best friends. That will be my everyday wish.

I am going to study during the weekend, other than saturday. Because is my mum's birthday!!! :D

SharmaineTok

2009-09-24T01:24:00.000-07:00

Okay, just reached home. Talked to Tabitha again!!! HAHAHA!! And i had my emotions out!! (:

School was fine today. Other than chemistry and maths, others was fine. Went lunch with HuiJing, HuiYing and Cheryl. Then went back to school to study. Study in the library a bit before coming home.

(Sorry to HuiJing, HuiYing, Cheryl and JERRY, ps you all again. SORRY!! ): )

Bitch:
Hey you!!! Dun think you got your boyf. to help you, then you are okay with everyone okay?!?!?! It only makes people more piss off. And you can actually tell your best friend " I'm your best friend!!! So you must tell me!!!" These words only tell people how fake and how "perfect" you are. Oh please, all humans make mistake. They are not perfect okay!?!?!?!

And you!!!! Stop faking lah. Bully my best friend one more time and you will get it from me.

Sorry again HJ, HY, CC, and JN. PS you all. ><

I am going to study. YAY to study!! (:

SharmaineTok

2009-09-23T01:49:00.000-07:00

OKay, had pe today. Fun but tiring though. (: Talked a lot during poa lesson with Cheryl and Jerry. I think HuiJing also. (: Laugh like siao and we keep singing songs. (: I think we sort of agitate Wesley through our singing. (:

Didn't go out today. Cheryl went off early, HuiYing and Jerry went home. HuiJing went out i think?? So i came home and eat my instant mee!!!! (: I miss my instant mee loads~~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D And i had my sastifaction. HAAHAHAHAHAHAAA. (:

I LOVE SCHOOL. WITH MY CLIQUE. AND I LOVE THEM TOO~~!!!!!!!! :D

I think i am becoming more and more crazy. (:

(i almost forgotten; we had fun di siao-ing Cindy and WeeKiat. Together with Wendy. HAHAHA.)

And Weekiat is a hongster. Have both Cindy and Wendy. All the -dys!!! (:

SharmaineTok

2009-09-22T02:01:00.000-07:00

School was fine today. Normal as it should be. (: But i think i will fail my physics test. I got study the day before leh. And end up i might be failing. How saddening. )):

Had lunch with HuiJing, HuiYing, Cheryl, Wendy and Jerry. Saw Anthony at primary school and talked to him for a while. HuiJing joked about it though. ( I really dun like him. -.- )

After lunch, went library with Cheryl and Wendy. Jerry and HuiYing went home first, whereas HuiJing went back to school to study. Borrowed books and went mrt with Cheryl. Had a heart-to-heart talk with her while waiting for Cheryl's sister. And now i know how everyone feels and how i should face my cliques. I enjoy talking to Cheryl!!! HAHAHAHA!! :D

Now i know how you guys feel, i shall change and try to tell you how i feel. Maybe i will not be "xi guan", but i will try. (:

SharmaineTok

2009-09-18T16:59:00.000-07:00

Okays, i didnt blog yesterday. So i shall blog about yesterday stuff. (:

Friday:
Rabiah didnt come to school and we had one free period. But that wasnt what i wanted!!! I brought her textbook to school and this is what she do to me!!! ): Someone was emo during POA and made me kneel down on the floor for two whole periods!!! Just to comfort that someone lah. Damn pain can!!! I still hate that maths trainee teacher. (those in faith 1-3 de knows best) Went TM after school with HuiJing, Cheryl, HuiYing, Wendy and Jerry. Keep laughing like siao in the mrt. And went home early after eating lunch with them. Once again i pangseh them. I feel super guilty lah. Everytime no freedom. People, wait till after exams okay??? By then i can go out almost everyday ba?!?! Hopefully. :X

I love yesterday!! As in everything was in order. I mean to my satisfaction. (: i hope everyday in school can be this happy!!!

I decided to let you two bitches off to your own. Do whatever you want, i dun care anymore. I decided to forget everything. EVERYTHING.

I really love my clique!!!!!! LOADS!!!! :D

SharmaineTok

2009-09-17T03:00:00.000-07:00

Okay, i have quite serious moodswings these days. Especially today. A bit crazy. -.-

Went home with Tabitha Tan today. Took mrt and talk loads of rubbish about different people. HAHA. Esp. the bithes. (: Now i know how is it to relieve stress. JUST TALK TO PEOPLE ABOUT CRAP!!! :D And tabitha owes me a soft toy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HAHAHA!!!

I am starting to study. Interesting right?? (: At least i am starting to change something. Love my studies.

Ohya, i forgotten i should crap about someone now. (:
Bitch No. 2:
Hey you!!! YOU!!! Look here. Seriously speaking, you really break people's trust to you. I trust you so much and yet you do this to me. Dun think i dunno what you are hiding. If you dun want to tell me, then dun say can?? Just tell me, "it is not for you to know, and not for me to say." That's all i need to here and i will stop probing. By telling me all these lies means that you dun even bother to know the consequences. And you lie without blinking your eyes. How interesting. Treating me like a stupid idiot who trust your words so much. To think you were once my best friend and i told you all my xin shi. I'm so bloody pissed off with you. PISSED OFF. Get it?? Stop bothering me and my best friend. Since you life with your best friends suits you so much, just carry on bluffing everyone. Stop bothering everybody. My patience has it's limits. GET IT???

I'm satisfied crapping. YAY. (:

I think i should concentrate more on how to enjoy my life, and stop being emo. 'cause my emo-ing will make my friends around me being affected. So i think i should stop thinking too much. If it is fated to be this way, then let it be. I'm not gonna care so much about it anymore. Happy with the fate a not, i will continue with my life. I will not think so much about it and the most ren. I think my tolerance towards things are getting shorter and shorter. Better get to the last time patience, where i can ren more. (:

I am going to change. Really. No matter what happens. I want to change. I dun care. Really. Someone help me please. I am totally stressed out.

(If my mum is satisfied with my year end results, i can go out more often!!!! With Cheryl and HuiJIng!!!! :DD )

Sorry folks, today is a super long post. :X

SharmaineTok

2009-09-16T01:36:00.000-07:00

Okay, today was actually okay de. Promise to be high in school, and ended up getting moody again. :/ Had pe today. I went super high lah. Though having fun disturbing Cindy. :X She was damn fed up with me lor. But i sort of feel bad disturbing her. ):

Stayed back in school to study with HuiJing, Cheryl and Jerry. Studied a bit before going home. Thought a lot of stuff on my way home. I feel super bad to them lah, everytime i go out or stay back with them, i always have to go home early. Thanks to my "lovable" mum.

On my way back, i thought about these stuff:

- Exams are coming near. It's really time to buck up. I dun want to fail again and disappoint anyone.

- It's time i should do something to my life. Piano and studies. I just wanna be a useful person. Not a total failure.

That's all.

I really dun wish to quarrel with you. Joking a not, i just dun want to spoil our friendship. I seriously dunnoe what did i do to get all these shit from you.

And bitch, do you know you totally spoil our friendship?? You just barge in and snatch away her. Now she totally changed. And she even can tell me lies. Just without blinking her eyes. What exactly do you want?? If she is what you want, then take it and get lost. Stop bothering me and my friend.

And lastly, Tabitha Tan, you owe me my present. (:

SharmaineTok

2009-09-15T05:50:00.000-07:00

Today went Seoul Garden. With HuiJing, Cheryl, HuiYing and Jerry. Then went to sing post to collect my specs. my bro say i looked weird in it. )):

Getting moody these few days. Dunnoe the reason. I apologise to you if i have spoil your mood /make you angry. ): Sorry.

I really dun want to make you angry. Why just we be normal friends and stop getting angry at each other??

SharmaineTok

2009-09-14T03:15:00.000-07:00

Okays, i think i better learn my lesson. My phone almost got confiscated. By my mum. But got it back le. Phew.

Today was the first day of the last term. -.- kind of boring anyway. Went out with Cheryl, HuiJing and Jerry. HuiYing couldn't make it. Long story anyway.

To HuiJing and Cheryl:
Dun tell anyone okay??? Especially ..... . I dun want to spoil "it" now.

SharmaineTok

2009-09-09T00:57:00.000-07:00

Since holidays are here, and no one is jio-ing me out, i shall stay at home. Myself. And study. I think i need to think about my own attitude towards people. Have to "fan shen" myself.

I need to change. Somehow or rather. People, just tell me if i have done anything wrong. I really want to change. For the better.

I think i changed too much. For the worst. And that's not what i really want.

SharmaineTok

2009-09-08T00:31:00.000-07:00

Went to my favourite godma's house on monday morning to stay. Just a short break from home and my mum. Was quite relaxing and interesting though. Just went swimming with my cousins and went prawning with my god-parents. Fun and we catched little fishes. Was totally relaxed there. That's one thing i love when i'm stressed out.
Watched "UP" with my two cousins in the morning. Thought it wasn't really a comedy. Almost cried on a few shots. The movie damn touching lah. ): Went home after eating lunch with my godmum. On my way home, my godmother called me and ask me if i am okay. Someone called my grandma and told her i was kidnapped and was beaten to death. The conversation was like this..

Godma: Shar, are you okay??
Me: yeah..i on my way home, why leh??
Godma: You sure?? Someone called granny and told her you was kidnapped.
Me: What the??? Are you sure???
Godma: Ya, i think you better call granny. She is very worried now. Call me when you reach home okay?? If i am not wrong, granny should be on her way to your house.
Me: HUH??? Are you sure?!?! I'm seriously okay. -.-
Godma: nvm, glad to hear you are okay. Be careful okays??
Me: Yeah, bye. Call you when i reached home.
Godma: Okay, bye.

So i called my grandma to tell her i was okay and asked her to stay at home. In the end, she is now at my house... NAGGING. I totally hate that person lah. Prank call somemore. In the end, is my problem now. I get the naggings. WTF. And now, whenever i go out, i sure get a lot of calls. 99.99% is my granny. All thanks to that idiot whose hands is so itchy to call my granny.

I am totally un-stress now. Going to chiong studies. (:

SharmaineTok

2009-09-06T01:35:00.000-07:00

Yesterday had carnival in school. Woke up at 6 and reached mac at 7. Had breakfast and went to school to finish up the decorations. Was a bit moody when carnival started and partly was because of lack of sleep for the past few nights. My mum gave me a surprise to sort of perk me up in the afternoon. MY MUM CAME FOR THE CARNIVAL!! Though it was just for a short while, i was super touched and happy. Slacked a while before going home around 6. I was feeling bad because i sort of spoil Cheryl's and HuiJing's mood. :X And i pangseh them by going home by myself. SORRY HUIJING AND CHERYL!!! ):

Needa buck up for my studies. Chionging maths and science and poa and geography. Seems never ending. ):

I failed my practical exam. ): Need to retake next year march. Another big headache. ): IWANTTOPASSMYEXAMS!!! )):

Everything is piling up. Can i take it?? I hope so. :X

Calvin might be coming back to singapore during the holidays. I dun seem to be very happy though..

SharmaineTok

2009-09-03T05:42:00.000-07:00

PISSED OFF. WITH MY MUM.

What's the problem with smsing over 1,000??? I dun understand. SERIOUSLY. And stop giving me stress. i know my results no good so stop nagging at me. You think you understand me well??? Mum, the day you changed your life with HIM is the day i changed my attitude towards you. Please stop saying you know me well. You changed too okay.

And i am really stressed up. Studies suck, family suck even more.. STRESSED!

SharmaineTok

2009-08-31T00:42:00.000-07:00

Long time no blog. Sorry. :X
Finish stressing my piano practical exam and now have to stress my theory exam. )):
Went to Cheryl's church on saturday. With Jerry. Dun think too much people. I'm just close friends with him. I can swear. Ask Jerry if you dun believe me.
Before going to Cheryl's church, went to school for GB and my piano lesson. I skipped my CIP for the heartspring thingy. Met ... and went to my piano lesson with... (some people know only. Scared you guys think too much. I can swear.) I was totally tired on that day lah.
Today was teacher's day celebration. Went to school and went to marina square to eat lunch with Cheryl, Huiying, HuiJing, Cindy, JiaYi and Jerry. Went home with Jerry once we finished our lunch. Super funny lah. -.-

I'm going out tomorrow. Yippees. (: TO STUDY. Cause i am a good girl. (: i want to make my mum happy!! (:

SharmaineTok

2009-08-08T02:14:00.000-07:00

Fine..i have not been posting for like.. super long!! Cause i am lazy and i am preparing for my piano exams.. plus i have nothing much to talk about.. at least for today.

Tired for the whole week. NDP was like #!@#@^***%#%!@@#@@!!!!! Didn't have much sleep at night, plus tests are piling up. Homework are piling up too.. ): And...... (only tris, ruyan and huisi know..) HAI......... )):

I think i'm totally stressed up. Everything. School, Family, life, and.....

SharmaineTok

2009-07-11T23:42:00.000-07:00

sorry peepos!! ): Long time never post. Since before june hols i stop posting le. SORRY!!! :X

June holidays wasn't very what you call slacking, but at least i had some rest. GB, studying, using com and going out with friends, that marks the end of my one month, 30 days de holidays, just gone!! At least i enjoyed. (:

School started and we changed places. From the second last row to the first row. I'm determined to study okay. Trust me, my results will show you. HEEEEEHEEEEEES!!!!! :D

Though lessons might be boring, with friends around seems much better. School life didn't semms to that bad with friends around.

2 people sent me 2 bombs on the first and second week. Calvin is leaving this July, going overseas to study, throwing me alone at Singapore. What the hell is he doing? I hate him. HAHA. (: But he promised to bring me over to stay during the school holidays!!!!! And maybe ask my mum if i could go there to study too!!!! I asked her, and guess what she says!!!! She said OKAY!!! But must wait for me to finish secondary school life. Maybe i go there and study music!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAA. :DD

The other person had dropped the bomb on the second week of school. But this one is i found out on my own. Guess the person wanted to keep the secret from me for as long as possible. She is my closest "friend" and yet she did this to me. Though at times i really hate her actions or words, but i still understand that no matter what, she is my friend and my family member. How could she...... (only a few people know, Ruyan, thanks for comforting me. )

SharmaineTok

2009-05-26T04:08:00.000-07:00

PISSED. REAL PISSED.
I HATE SOME ASSHOLE TEACHER. HE SUCK.
HE MAKE MY DAY GO LIKE AN _|_ ING IDIOT.
HE MAKE ME GO HAY-WIRE.
HE SUCK.
HE MAKE ME HATE SOMETHING I THOUGHT I LOVE IT A LOT.
HE REALLY SUCK.

SharmaineTok

2009-05-25T01:26:00.000-07:00

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. (: I'm high. ((:
(Cause i got my new phone. :DD )

Today quite a lot of people never come school. So the class was a little quiet than the usuals. A LITTLE ONLY. (: Carpped with Wendy the whole day. & was being bullied. How sad. (:

Msn-ing now & realised that i haven finish my project work. Mind you! The deadline is TOMORROW. How interesting right?? (:

I'm going on with my life. Much more better without you. & i realise that it was you that made my life miserable. Cause you made my mind think of you. So i guess i know what are your flaws.

Jiayou to Theron Chong & Calvin Koh. Cause they are taking "O" level this year.
& obviously, my mum's boyf son. HAH! ((:

I LOVE MY MUM, MY PHONE AND MY LIFE NOW. ((:

SharmaineTok

2009-05-22T02:59:00.001-07:00

Okay. Not satisfied with my results. NOT. )):
Though i fail one subject, that is combined humans. I'm still not happy. I dropped to NA liao, & my results still like kns. FUCK. I hate it lah.

But at least i pass my combined science and maths!! MIRACLE. ((:

I am going to start my plan. Forget everything and start anew. (: Wish me luck people. (:

Sharmaine is a good girl. She is planning her holiday. ((:

SharmaineTok

2009-05-21T01:57:00.000-07:00

Okay. I decided to give up on you. YOU. You disappoint me again and again. What's the problem with you?!?!I once thought maybe you might be an exceptional. End up? You are another one who make me feel love is just to make people emo, sad, and useless. Guess what? I hate you. HATE. Understand?!?! Get out of my life. Thank you very much. ((:

Goodbye my love; Hello my friend. ((:

SharmaineTok

2009-05-21T01:55:00.001-07:00

I think my results suck. )):

SharmaineTok

2009-05-20T14:45:00.000-07:00

Guess what?? It's early in the morning 5.45 and yet Sharmaine Tok is here blogging. How amazing that is. :D

Spent the whole day at home lazing around. :X Though exams are totally over, but i CRAVE to go out. ): But i will wait. Wait till i get my new phone then it will be.... PARTY TIME. MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. :DD

I will be a good girl trying to help my mum. ('cause i want my new phone. *evil smile* )

Good luck to everyone today. It will be the end of everything. ( exam results. :S )

& i really miss you.
But i know i love you. hehe. ((:

How great is my family.
My godmum is bringing me out for shopping & lunch without her two sons. (: Peaceful shopping. HAH. :D

My mum is bringing me out to get my new phone & shopping too. (i think she is changing...for the better. <: ) My mum's boyf is giving me extra money to enjoy myself. (:

My uncle (not my mum's boyf) is bringing me out with his friends to dunno where. (:

See, they are great right?? ((:

I have many activities in the holiday.
- sergant camp.
- first aid course.
- outing with tabitha and amanda and amabel.
- outings with my beloved family. :DD
- outings with friends???? (after my new phone; i wanna cam-whore. )
- & piano. )):

That's all i think??
For now. YES. & i think that's alot. :X

I love you. YOU!! :DD & i love my family, my girlfriends, my friends. MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
(okay, i'm high. Early in the morning.)

Sharmaine Tok

2009-05-19T05:31:00.000-07:00

EXAMS ARE OVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HAHAHAHAHAH. (too high) :X

Hahahahahahaha. i love exams. (:

i love my mum. ((:

gonna get my new phone. (any suggestions???) ((:

starting to work hard and study. (i'm a good girl de okay. TRUST ME. )

I love everyone, esp. ........................................................... ((:

SharmaineTok

2009-05-07T04:32:00.000-07:00

Okay. No mood to be high. :/ Cause of one person. ONE.
& is none other than...... Calvin Koh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! )):
(He ask me to put his name on my blog, but he didn't say to mention about what. HAHA. :D )

Today was actually okay. HAHA. (: I seriously hate Mr Teo. He showed the video of the lion & buffalo. ): & the stupid KELVIN LIM & NG WEE KIAT kept talking about me (lion). ASSHOLE. ):

Lazy to blog bout today. Having mood swings.

Friendship always talk about trust. If you can't even let people trust that you wouldn't say about their secrets, then it wouldn't be called friends.

SharmaineTok

2009-05-06T03:16:00.000-07:00

LALALALALALALALALALA.... I'm a little too high right now. A LITTLE ONLY. REALLY. :D
( i dunno why i so high...HEHEHEES~ :D )

Today school was alright. Today POA i didn't pay attention. Was listening to Taylor Swift songs RuYan sent to me on Mon with Wendy. ((: Didn't do pe today cause forgot today got pe. >< YuYing never come, but i very happy. HAHA. :D Geography was okay okay. I love chinese. ((: Got compo test, though didn't really finish my story. But at least i'm confident i will pass. (: Not like the BEAVER, who will fail. HAHA. :D

Went to take mrt with Tabitha, Amanda & Amabel!! <33 Miss walking with them a lot!! (: But that 3 idiots spoil my mood lah...keep disturbing me. )): But luckily i was quite high cause CINDY GAVE ME LOLLIPOP DE PICTURE!!!!!!! I was actually quite moody today de. Cindy gave me that picture & i went high for the rest of the day. :DD

Recently, i kept talking to RuYan. & i really thought a lot. (: Maybe i was a foolish fool. (:

RuYan:
Thanks for talking to me these few days. Though i really agree what you say, but guess what??? i will still think of him after i thought of your words. i also got keep your msg de okay!! HEHES. ((: LOVE YOU~!! (but love him more. :P )

I'M REALLY SUPER HIGH LAH. REALLY!!!!!

SharmaineTok

2009-05-05T03:26:00.000-07:00

HEHE. i long time never blog liao. (: Though i use lappy everyday. :D

Monday:
Calvin came to my house on sun and gave me a KINDER JOY!!!! WOOS~~~~ i was like, give me???? I WANT I WANT!!!! (: okay, i'm very lame. VERY. (:

Today:
i was actually quite high today. In school almost the whole day high like siao. Then, use msn make me until so pekchek. SOME IDIOT MAKE ME SO ANGRY. )): I was so bloody angry. ROAR....

I think i'm a bloody fool. Like a stupid idiot loving a guy who doesn't even care a single bit. )):

I HATE KELVIN LIM WEI CHAO. HE IS AN BLOODY IDIOT. He keep saying.................... not gonna say here. Too pissed off.

I'm super pissed off. SUPER.

Cheryl didn't come school. Sad. ):

SharmaineTok

2009-04-29T03:12:00.000-07:00

I was slacking at my lappy, going from blog after blog & i realised something. Everyone around me are really moving on. Me? Still waiting for some miracle to happen.

Today was the start of exams. I really missed smsing. ): Yesterday, i used my mum's bloyf's son de phone to some people. RuYan, Cheryl, HuiJing, Calvin, Amanda (my cousin) & Beaver. Though many of them were really comforting me for the shock i had in school. Thoughi said i didn't feel anything, i really thought a lot to myself. Maybe i was really really too sensitive.

Everyone jiayou for exams okay?!?!?!?! (:

Seriously, i super disappointed in you. I didn't know you did that. I just didn't understand you enough. Hope she will like you.

Kor:
Dun sad liao. (: Cheer up. (: Jiayou for mye okay!! <3

Ruyan:
Thanks for comforting me & telling me those facts. (: Though i still need time to get over, but dun worry, i wun say anything. <3

Cheryl:
You know what i think right? (: Give me time to really get this thing over me. Sorry if i showed attitude to you. SORRY. Anyway,

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY!! <3

HuiJing:
Well, i understand what you mean 'bout him. I know the true him alr. (: Thanks anyway. <3

Calvin:
You know what i want to say liao lah. I need not explain right?!?!?! She seriously love you lah. :D Just go for it. HEHE. (:

SharmaineTok

2009-04-27T03:32:00.001-07:00

Okay...didn't bring my ic stuffs today!! ): called my mum & she told me that she would ask her boyf to bring it to my school! I was T-O-U-C-H-E-D. (:

Didn't pay attention during POA. Or should i say i didn't really pay attention to almost every lesson the whole day. Except for chinese & abit of maths. (:

Someone made me angry. For that someone broke his promise. ):

I'm gonna mug hard for MYE. (: I'm serious. (:

BEAVER, you are too sensitive. (:

SharmaineTok

2009-04-25T04:40:00.001-07:00

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!! (: i just enjoy laughing. (:

Exams are coming but i dun seem to study much. Anyone wanna go out & mugg together??? (: Today didn't have GB!! :D But have piano. ): But it was fun anyways. i crapped with my teacher. HAHA. (:
Amanda (my cousin) came my house. & we were like laughing & laughing & laughing at the stupid Calvin Koh. HE IS AN STUPID IDIOT! (:

I enjoy going to school. (:

I thought of you the whole day. & i just feel like telling you, i miss you. (:

SharmaineTok